Ever feel like things are completely out of your control and you are completely helpless? Yes, our lives are out of our control, which leads to a strong dependence on Christ. But, when the control that we think we have is completely stripped from us, it stirs emotionally. Christ is teaching me a lot about this greater dependency and its hard. I have been gone from this blog for a long time, with no good excuse, other than its the bottom of my priority list. I am in a place where I need to blog. These last seven months have been so hard, and I am not even in the situations that these precious children are in. Little girls are being sexually molested by who they thought was their “father”, children are pulled from physical violence in the home only to be abused in foster homes, children are being moved from their familiar “temporary family” with no understanding behind it, babies are being exposed to drugs in the belly of their mother….it never ends….and its all out of my “control”. I want to “control” things to ensure these innocent children are protected and safe. While its a good thing to want to protect these children, I am not surrendering them to the One who is in control of all things.
In this last month, I have really been challenged. Significantly challenged. Prayer. Yes, I pray for direction in my job and I pray for these precious kiddos. But I mean, really pray. Pray for these kids by name each time I am with them. Each of them has such specific needs and each of them needs the Body to pray on their behalf. It kills me that I can’t protect them more from the trenches they are in, but I have been reminded a lot recently that while I can’t “control” the situations they are in, I can intercede for them through prayer. I sometimes question or doubt the power of prayer, but thankfully, I have been brought back to Truth. There is power in prayer and prayer can bring about so much freedom.